I’m having some suspicion about being a ‘fan’ of anything.
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\nI have big fascinations with some certain artist, that artist’s work resonates with me, perhaps<\/i> the work will continue to resonate with me, but…
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\nWhen I come back to the work, is it nostalgia that drives me back, a desire for that feeling I had when I first connected vigorously to the work? That feeling that is now lost? Nostalgia is a longing for something lost. It is a kind of suffering. I don’t want to live while longing for something I cannot have.
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\nIf I am coming back to the work because “I am a fan of this”, then that’s just a re-inforcement of identity, is it necessary? Do I cease to exist if I don’t remind myself that I am a fan of this?
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\nDo I need to identify myself as a fan of anything?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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